bananneli:

I wish that there was a socially acceptable way to say, “I’m having a bad mental health day and need you to pay attention to me,” without alienating everyone.

There are days you keep silent
There are moments when I need you, but you keep your distance.
There are hours that I felt like years because I couldn’t stop missing you.
There are minutes which felt like hours when I get excited to meet you.

& there are thoughts, ugly thoughts which I couldn’t stop building about you. How much it pleases the world if what I feel doesn’t exist.

& there are thoughts, beautiful daydream which you feed me with about spending the rest of the minutes, the hours, the days I have with someone that really matters.. you.